No turning back

Thou hast put me in this world for something; Lord, show me what that is, and help me to work out my life-purpose: I cannot do much; but as the widow put in her two mites, which were all her living, so, Lord, I cast my time and eternity too into thy treasury; I am all thine; take me, and enable me to glorify thee now, in all that I say, in all that I do, and with all that I have. M2-15  years back that was the desire of my heart, it would set me free to go without question, or doubt,  so many places, far and near,  and see the wonders of each journey as God visited each step of the way. "Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6    Wisdom I learnt is unspeakable miracles over and over all the way night after , months on end with joy and bliss at each place,,,  yep it was setting  life of excuse and ease aside and time away into places  seemed to go on forever. I survived a lot by his grace, cold winters nights , slept standing once,,,got soaked in winter swamp  never forgot  the store lady called me out awake or you'll freeze,,,,, oh how that coffee she made was so good  and the one treat,,,   many other things,  seen the unseeable and the faceless figures   slithered through the darkness so still and ominous lives.  Not the same any more,, God changes us when we go by faith, God is real not just in a book or icon but alive in us,, don't have to ask another how to know him he'll tell ya he's the real teacher!!!  he's delighted in your faith, ,,,  got to go leave all behind life to...  it hurts at times, never alone God is with you always,  like the above says got to die to self,  he makes us newer each harder time,,, like love, lost myself to Christ , I guess, way it goes with him,  can't go back just for ward try to get to him as fast as I can,   Jesus is the way, only personal and love  filled each night,  hope for those wandering in the darkest ways.